True Beginning...

I know I said I would I post something every night, but honestly I think I was going too fast. I just admitted that I am very indecisive and have a problem with worrying about how my words will come across. I say all that, honestly mind you, then turn around and tell that bald face lie. Will people I apologize. Honestly I will post as it comes to me. I will however pray that I work on these issues and use this forum as a venting spot to help.

Well, I want to continue the stories that I started in "My 1st Blog" but I don't know if I should. I don't know if anyone was interested, or was it too much too fast. Hell was it not enough. I want to tell you all how I got to be the person I am today. The person who has seen way too much for her age. The person that loves and wants to be loved. I want to tell you all about the 1st time I got drunk and went home that way. That was funny as hell. The time I saw one of my best friends take their life. I have seen a lot and it has truly defined the person I am today..

Y'all know what?!? Fuck it... I am going to share them even if no one reads em.
HMMMMMM where will I start?!? Or do I continue?!? Well, just keep watching my tweets and I'll make sure to post.


LOL, I am gonna try for 10/17/10... expect a good story.

I have something to say

I wrote that first blog and published it 10 months later. I was very unsure if I should. I am a very indecisive person and have a hard time putting myself out there. However for the last few days all I can think about is blogging. I keep having a repetitive feeling of venting. I thought of everyone that I could have called but no one jumped out. I want to tell everyone and no one. I want to get it off my chest and let it go but I don't want to have to explain. I am so heavy with words that I fear if I begin to release them I won't stop. That I would just start start spilling words out and what I was trying to say would be lost in a sea of words with no meaning.

I have a lot to say and sometimes it just flows out with no real end. I have opinions that a only my feelings but I think people may want to hear. However I write them and never publish them. Afraid of what will be thought of me. Yet I don't care what you say to my face I have never understood that. As I ramble on and on I pray that some of it is understood that I some how get the attention of someone who will understand and read thru the floods of info that I am trying to share.

With that I will let you all know that I am promising a new blog nightly. Work with me friends I promise it will all be worth it.

Love, peace, and above all HAPPINESS....